is it possible that we get our idea of how we want our wedding to be, or rather the time we want it to be from when we fell in love? because think about it, when you fall in love, or even if youre just really happy, don't you notice more of the small things that are beautiful? everything about that time and maybe the place you fell in love during will stick wih you forever, everything pops out at you, even things that you have seen time and time again, but now its in a new way. that new way is now forever special to you and your blossoming love.

i finally saw runaway bride the other day, even if it was only the second half of it and i liked it. and then me and my sister just watched the medding planner and i just felt like finally thinking abut what i would always want mine to be like and it got me thinking about that. i'm not in love or anything, but i have a lot of friends who are getting married around me, or already are, and i feel old, like i'm going in the direction my parents fear for me.
but that is only a small fear at the moment because i feel more like myself than i ever have before and i feel like i can do anything right now, and i love life and the people around me. i'm not ready to get married even if i found the right one, not even ready to date right now, but maybe soon i will be, i just hope someone else will be too... lol. if not, life goes on.