A song i found this week that just summarizes life for me right now.

You're reachin' out,
And no one hears your cry.
You're freakin' out again
'Cause all your fears remind you.
Another dream has come undone.
You feel so small and lost
Like you're the only one.
You wanna scream,
'Cause you're desperate.

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight.
You want a reason to keep believin'
That some day you're gonna see the light...

You're in the dark;
There's no one left to call.
And sleep's you're only friend,
But even sleep can't hide you
From all those tears and all the pain
And all the days you waste pushin' them away.
It's your life; it's time you face it.

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight.
You want a reason to keep believin'
That some day you're gonna see the light...
'Cause you're desperate, desperate.
'Cause you're desperate now...

You know the things have gotta change.
You can't go back, you find a way.
And day by day, you start to come alive.

You want somebody, just anybody
To bring some peace to your soul tonight.
You want a reason to keep believin'
That some day you're gonna see the light...

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight.
You want a reason to keep believin'
That some day you're gonna see the light...
'Cause you're desperate, desperate.
'Cause you're desperate tonight.
Oh, desperate... So desperate tonight,
Tonight...

David Archuleta doesn't know how well he knows me right now.
Things are just really hard right now. the semester started off hard, i was sick when we started back, and i'm still slowly working my way back up, and having a rollercoaster of emotions going on, from super excited about things that are a long way off, dreams that i can't reach for yet, to defeat, because catching back up and staying afloat is kicking my butt. and all the same old things that have kept me down before are just grabbing my face and holding it there in its own glare. i know i can get break out and do it all, but it is going to take time, and i just wish i knew how long, so it would make it easier to get through.