this past week has been ridiculous. i have been challenged physically emotionally mentally and spiritually, all of that together has been quite overwhelming. i am better now, on the ball, pulling myself back together again, it was rough for a while, i couldn't seem to focus on anything really. today though things seem more clear. i had a great epic focus kind of day which doesn't happen very often but i felt like i finally knew everything i had to do.
several things have come to the surface lately.
i have had a need to be discipled for a while, and that prayer has finally been answered and will start in action next semester.
there is a guy i have been getting to know, i really still don't know that well, but things seem to be going well, even if we're just friends. i feel comfortable around him, its easy to just be myself, which is something i haven't felt in a long time.
I have also just realized some other things about my life in general, i'm starting to grip that things really will never be the same again. life has already changed for me and will continue to do so. there are family issues that have been going on for a while that are about to take a turn one way or another. if its good, hopefully it will continue to be good, if its bad, i just hope that lessons are learned from mistakes and we can move on. its like the blue pill red pill thing, from this point on, nothing will be the same.
i also auditioned for the play for next spring. we are doing the "Pirates of Penzance". i got in as one of the Major Generals daughters. I also audtitioned for a ministry team that does music, called the Difference, and i made the callbacks and am still waiting to hear if i made it. these are big things for me. i have never been in a traveling group before. i did the play last year and it was great, so i am excited to be a part of the next one.